TheCh4os

I'm listening now, at present, to a new song (titled in the...top) for the 6th or 7th time, and I'm wonder to myself - is there any meaning for all of this? Well, of course there isn't, but mypoint is that we are doind things because we decide to do them, and because there is reason for everything. but if there is reason for everything, then there is fate too? of course I, as myself, can not accept it, because if I accept fate, I'm also declaring that there is destiny and god, and that is out of the question, for me, an obvious atheist. So why? why am I waking up in the morning, and deciding to go to work, to play some game, to listen to some